february 28th, 2001 / one thirty six pm

i was asked by a friend
to write about what I know
and share it
with those who don't

i was so troubled by the thought
of writing only what i know,
and not what i might have believed,
or something that may have been specualtory
that i took the day off
from school
from work
from any other activity
to think about
what it is
that i know.

through much thinking
and many torn out notebook pages
i have come to find,
i do not know much
but that which i am sure of
i will share with you here

you have to find out who you're not
before you can find out who you are

we all must go through
trials of self truth and
self abuse
and climb our way out
of whatever holes we dig ourself into
but all of these
surely useless things
are there for a singular purpose
to try to define who
we
as individuals
truly are

there will be many times in our life
when we may ask ourself
"what is my purpose?"
or, for those with truly educated minds
"who am i?"

the only way to answer either of the two
is simply establish
who you do not want to be

once you learn
what you don't want to be
the possibilities
are limitless
for who you are
and for who you will become.

other than that
my knowledge is limited
and for the most part
unfounded ideas
or theories

romance continues to be a mystery
our reason for existance
doesn't exactly concern me
and the universe?
well, i am only a small part in it
my thoughts on it have probably already been had
and been scientifically proven wrong.

the only thing i do know
is that i am here
i am continuing to learn who i am
(or for those who pay attention
who i am not)
and i am allowing myself

to learn,
to love
and most importantly
to live

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