march 15th / twelve twenty six am

i sometimes wonder if it's worth it
nothing in specific
just life in general
would it really be that bad
if i took one drink?
would it be so horrible
if i swallowed just one pill?
why am i doing this to myself?
it really doesn't make sense
nothing seems to matter at this point
and I'm not making a point.
i guess with one step forward,
i follow with 3 steps back
the only thing left to comfort me at this point
is the smiths
and a well intentioned friend
this isn't doing me any good
writing nonsensical prose
so I'm inclined to just

stop.

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