february 8th, 2004 / 10:40 p.m.

in case you were wondering, i've been off falling in love again. i can't say how many times this has been now..but something tells me this time i won't be having any falls any time soon. maybe someday i'll come back to this..and write my little heart out somemore..but there's something about this that's just so hard to come back too...

two years of horrible memories and horrible times. yes there was sometimes when everything was ok..even great. but the number of bad to good is at least 10 - 1, and thats something i can't so quickly go back too.

i'm still writing, just not here. i'm still living..just not through this. emotions are better expressed with words and actions. not charecters on screens. and i guess thats why lately my songs have been spoken and my poems have been cried.

this is not a requiem, not yet.

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