april 29th, 2004 / 10:47 p.m.

you wouldn't get me to admit to this in a million years, but i read you were doing well, and i read about how much you hate me, and it made me kind of miss you. it made me miss what we once had in the better times. sure things were never perfect, but they were as close as i've ever been. and maybe i'm reopening old wounds by talking about this in open forum, but i hope..i know you still think about me..once in a while. and remember what we once had. i bet we could meet somewhere, and pick up where we left off, without questions asked or reservations made.

long drives on rte 6 that don't end up at your house are confusing as fuck. and it's been almost 6 months..but i still retrace footsteps and phone numbers we once had.

i dialed your number one day by accident and was so paralyzed by excitement i almost wasnted to stay on the line..i didn't, but it's the thought that counts.

i go to shows, and think i might see you there. well. hope i guess. just so i can see your face again.

i realized today that i forgot what your voice sounded like..and that made me really sad.

we might not have been meant to be together, but i don't think we were meant to be apart, either.

maybe this is all late night rambling (but justin, it's only 11 oclock, ....shut up)

but yea

you'd never in a million years get me to admit that i miss you.

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