April 25, 2006 / 11:06 p.m.
I can't keep doing this waking up with girl a, going to bed with girl b. I need loyalty I need sincerity I need someone to understand my insecurities. I'm not yet old. But I'm getting older. Friends are getting married, having kids, and buying houses while I'm stuck with child-like idealisms. What's wrong with me? Why can't I just go to school, get a job, find a wife, get married and die... happy I feel like my chances are running out at being someone important to one person or to a large group (it doesn't matter which) I write these words to help me cope but they don't hide my obvious failures which are written into each line I'm not yet dead, but I'm tap dancing around the grave the soundtrack full of songs of rejection I can't keep doing this Living life like its never going to end because it will and I really don't want to die alone.
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